Monday, August 28, 2006

Rebel without a clue

Well, isn't this interesting....
I'm really not so sure about this one. Yes partly, I'm the "rebel"...or more like 'rebel wannabe'. but other times....hell no, I'm conformist all the way.
Course as a learned member of the academy (ok, ok, no yet, but trying dammit..) I shouldn't put much stock in silly web quizzes like this.

but they're so much fun, and so often are scarily accurate.

I'd also be curious to take the same quiz on different days, or weeks apart to see differences..especially given the visceral nature of the experiment here....hmmm

Your Hidden Talent

You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system.
And while this may not seem big, it can be.
It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes.
You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Luck of the Blarney..

Ha! And the computer gets one right, despite the serious desire for the Ferrari it still turned up this--not bad...

Your Inner European is Irish!

Sprited and boisterous!
You drink everyone under the table.

Saturday, August 19, 2006

Every Executive Needs a Limit--Slate Magazine

Judge Taylor got it right on wiretapping. By Erwin Chemerinsky - Slate Magazine

Once again I'm "off topic", as the topic of this blog was/is supposed to be about my grad school and PhD travails. Nonetheless, some things are too well written, too important, and too relevant to ignore. I'd like to have a link to this for a while--it's so perfectly on point as to why the current executive branch has no right to the limitless powers it keeps exercising, by definition of the Constitution.
Anyone who thinks we need to do 'whatever it takes' and that the President has the power to do so, needs to read this. Anyone who thinks current security measures don't infringe on our civil liberties, needs to read this. Anyone who thinks 'the ends justify the means', needs to read this.

Too damn bad none of them will.

"So long, and thanks for the Ph.D!"

A graduate school survival guide: "So long, and thanks for the Ph.D!"

Obviously I'm still on the same theme here (i'd say it's like a 'broken record' but that dates me a bit, since i must be the last of my generation to remember what the f--k a 'record' actually is! some kid looked at my mother-in-law funny tonight when she mentioned the word 'record'--he's never seen one, never heard one. oh boy...).

But this is a very well written piece, and doesn't focus too much on his CS field, and isn't even that dated--amazing given that this guy earned his doctorate over a decade ago in a very techie area. So certain truisms still apply, and the field is close to mine--sorta-- and one of his committee members is someone whose work I've studied a bit and is quite revered by many in my program/department. And more hints, sage advice and good stories about grad school can't hurt. Hell, I need all the help I can get in surviving grad school!

The truest part is the one that echoes what Astro told me the other day and which has precipitated this whole introspective rant and questionably productive blogging and linking.
"You don't have to be a genius to do well in graduate school. You must be reasonably intelligent, but after a certain point, I think other traits become more important in determining success."

Damn.
True. But still a bit bothersome.
See, intelligence is one thing I apparently have in spades, and one my more marketable skills. Likewise, the one I am most proud of being recognized for. At the same time that is all a bit silly since how intelligent I am (or not!) is/was mostly a chance determination of genetics-- luck of the draw, good parental genes, good parental options for schooling and nurturing. None of it particularly of my own damn doing, or control. And yet, it remains the skill or trait I most want to use, achieve 'fame' for, etc.
And realistically, in the long run, that isn't a good enough reason for anything, let alone for pursuing a damn doctorate and a teaching career.
It also doesn't seem to be modest or humble in any way, and yet I'm mostly both-- never boastful, and more down on myself really than anything. So why this pride in my IQ? Because I'm not really thrilled, happy or proud of any other of my skills, traits or hallmarks?

So I have to start finding ways to make other skills work, to balance things out, use more than mere little braincells if I really, truly want to get that PhD at the end of the rainbow.

Friday, August 18, 2006

Goal Setting - Time Management

AKA "getting your shit together part 2"

Goal Setting - Goals - Planning - Achievement - Graduate Students -Graduate School Admissions and Survival - Graduate Life

In case I didn't know why I keep procrastinating... (but I largely do)


Procrastination Research from Carelton

It's all about balance. Help from UCSD.

And about being a "good student" ...whatever that means!
More links on balance, getting through, 'being good'.
Mind Tools, time management
U Minnesota time management

Ah yes, and some tips on making CVs. Where was this a few weeks ago when I needed it?

And more things to distract me, all in the name of keeping my spirits up.
The Professor Translator
Grad School vs. Hell--what's the difference?!
The "real" meaning of PhD


this almost makes up for the lovely little post I was writing, getting stuff outta my system last week when "poof!" I hit some damn key on my laptop and all the text mysteriously disappears. (No, numnutz, I did not hit the damn delete key! sheesh)
And maybe instead of just writing about being upset, or off kilter, or whatever, i've taken a few first steps towards working on my, ummm, "issues".

So thanks Astro. I know I needed the kick in the ass, and maybe it will get me moving. (although I think really, the motivation for that has to come from ME...no one else really. but that's another post) And at the least introspection is always good, right? yah, sure.

Manage Your Time: Time Management Tips

Manage Your Time: Time Management Tips


Maybe this will help me to get my act together.

In the latest in grad school rantings and bitchings I'm apparently 'off track'. My words actually. Words from Astro, meant in all good care and with my best interests in mind (no, I'm being serious not sarcastic) were that I have "no drive". "You may be the most brilliant student I've ever met, but you also have the least drive". Not good, eh.
And also likey true. The truth hurts like a bitch.

So I have to make better use of my time, make better plans, and take action.
ANY action, just do something...do more...do any small bit that moves me forward and toward my goals.

Just as soon as I straighten out in my head what those goals are, eh?!

Damn...

Monday, August 14, 2006

Quindlen: Safety Is a Modern and Ultimately Vulnerable Illusion - Newsweek Anna Quindlen - MSNBC.com

Quindlen: Safety Is a Modern and Ultimately Vulnerable Illusion - Newsweek Anna Quindlen - MSNBC.com

This is in no way related to my academic life, and I don't generally do peronal or political screeds, but this is too important and resonant a piece to pass up.

We all want to feel "safe" and have given our government a blank check in the name of ensuring our "safety" from those who might do us harm. But it is an illusion. There is no such thing as really being "safe". You can take precautions to the best of one's abilities but nothing is an absolute. And we have been sold a program and a line about "absolutes". Witness the latest efforts at air travel safety...
Personally I think it is ludicruous that an explosive method that chemists have known of for years is only now a matter of concern and awareness regarding travel and screenings. And while I am not a chemist, I can feel fairly safe in saying that I don't think lipstick, mascara, hair gel or lip balm are means of bringing down a plane. So banning these items is an exercise in making us all feel "safer" even though we aren't. We can't ever really by "safe" and we need to just get used to that. Not used to acts of terror, but used to being aware, mindful, and respectful of the fact that no measure of security is 100% effective.
So let us reclaim our lives, and our civil liberties and stop trying to pretend that all that is being done is keeping us "safe".